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Post by rigel andromeda serpens on Mar 28, 2010 23:15:18 GMT -5
If she wanted to, Rigel could have cried. But she was stronger than that, especially when she wanted to be. The last time she cried was when she and Jace finally got together, granted she was upset about their best friend Reid passing away but some good came out of it. She didn't want to break up with Jace; not one bit. And she understood that he wasn't having the best time of his life at that moment. His mother was really sick and she needed to be taken care of. The endless letters of worry that Jace had sent her, only made her love for him grow. The fact that he cared so much about those he loved, made her love him more. He was amazing and she was so happy to have him be in her life. But all that worry, made him worry about his relationship with Rigel, and even question her loyalty. To her, it might as well have been a stab in the heart and no matter what kind of problems he was going through, not once in his letters did he say anything about it. According to him, he saw something at the party and Rigel wanted to know what that was.
She felt his hand against her shoulder and moved away again, this time looking straight into his eyes. This was she could see exactly what he felt and vice versa. Rigel couldn't understand where all of this was coming from. If anything, she was expecting him to surprise her whenever he came and sweep her off of her feet literally. He claimed to have missed her so much in his letters and she reflected the same feelings if not more. Jace was everything to her and she believed ti be the same to him. But she seemed to have been wrong. "What exactly did you see me do Jace?" she asked bitterly. Her voice cracked slightly, and her eyes were starting to water, but she wouldn't allow herself to cry. She didn't want Jace to see how much he hurt her even though she knew she was being obvious. "Huh? Because I want to know what constitutes as flirting to you so I won't be accused of cheating with whomever I end up being with next." Those words stung. She might as well have made out with some random man right in front of him. But Rigel was angry and she wanted to hurt him now. She didn't understand how he could be so cruel when she didn't do anything at all. This jealous side of him wasn't appealing in anyway and it made Rigel worry that she was the stupid one and fell for someone she didn't really know after all. No. She wouldn't allow herself to think that way. Now her own fears from before she met Jace, were catching up to her again.
She never believed in serious relationship before. And it wasn't until Jace came along to where she truly felt love for someone other than her family or friends. It was true love that she never thought she could even have for anyone. And as much as it scared her, Jace was able to open a completely new outlook on life for her and she wasn't more thankful that she already was. But now, things seemed to be changing and it didn't look good for Jace and Rigel. She knew her last words were hard on him, but she didn't care. Waiting for his retort, she let him "explain" himself since he needed to so desperately.
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Post by jace greyson. on Mar 28, 2010 23:58:42 GMT -5
he nodded to himself when she pulled away from him, he didn't want to- couldn't loose her. she'd been the first one to drag him out of his little watchdog world, What exactly did you see me do Jace?
[/i][/color] rubbing the back of his neck with his hand, he looked at her, trying to make his words make sense. Huh? Because I want to know what constitutes as flirting to you so I won't be accused of cheating with whomever I end up being with next.[/b][/i] flinching, he nodded. . . he deserved that. i. . . i don't exactly know what i saw. i saw you laughing and talking with some guy, i saw him whisper something in your ear. . .[/b] now he could hear just how crazy it sounded. i haven't slept in all too long, i've been stressed, i jumped to conclusions and i shouldn't have.[/b] he just wanted her to understand that normally he wasn't like this, when he was being reasonable he was the calmest guy around. just right now, things weren't the best for him and he wanted to just sleep it all off. slipping past her, he walked over to one of the benches and sat down, vera not even thinking about following him. he could see the she-cat weaving around rigel, the cat had taken sides, and it wasn't his. i'm not like this ri, you know that. . . [/b] looking down at the stone ground, he breathed in, trying to figure out what he could say to make rigel trust him again. i understand if you want me to leave, but i came back here for one reason, and that was that there was someone waiting for me here, someone i couldn't leave.[/b] [/blockquote][/blockquote][/size]
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Post by rigel andromeda serpens on Mar 29, 2010 0:17:40 GMT -5
Vera's tail wrapped around Rigel's ankle. Rigel had to look down and sighed when she saw the cat. Vera was a pretty amazing animal and definitely wasn't just an cat. Vera had a mind of her own, definitely that of a human's and Rigel couldn't help but love that cat as much as she loved her owl Patrick. From what she saw, Vera was on her side and Rigel did feel a certain satisfaction that she was right. But Vera was also telling her that Jace was aware of what he did and it was time to calm down.
She took the time to see how exhausted and upset Jace was. He realized that he made a big mistake and he was obviously sorry for it. But he still didn't say it. He still didn't simply say "I'm sorry". If he had from the beginning, while meaning it, Rigel wouldn't have gotten as upset as she currently was. But she was still hurt and wanted Jace to take charge and truly show her that he was imagining things. However she was afraid that he was only convincing himself he was wrong just to end the argument. Rigel didn't want them to be over, but she didn't want Jace to not trust her either.
Sighing again, Rigel calmed herself down and stroked back her hair. Her eyes were red and water, but she was able to refrain any tears from falling. She felt terrible for being so mean to Jace, but sometimes the ultimatum had to be brought in order to make others realize what was being sacrificed. She moved closer to Jace and looked to Vera, assuring her all would be well. She then sat next to him and bit her lip. "How are your mother and sister?" she asked. She truly hoped they were both alright. Last she heard from Jace, his mother was better but not one hundred percent better. He just needed to come back to school for the fact that he was missing to many classes and he also missed Rigel.
She placed her hand upon his, showing him that she was still there and understood where he was coming from. But that didn't mean she agreed. The whole "cheating" discussion was over for now. Rigel just wanted to make sure the man she loved was able to relax enjoy the rest of his time away from his family. "Are they going to be OK without you until the semester is over? Or will you need to leave school again?" She squeezed his hand tight, thumbing the side of his hand. His eyes looked so painful and she wanted to slap him and kiss him at the same time. But he needed to realize that if he really didn't trust her, then she wouldn't tolerate it at all.
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Post by jace greyson. on Mar 29, 2010 1:05:47 GMT -5
looking up at her when she sat down beside him, he studied her face, looking for anything. How are your mother and sister?
[/i][/color] he thought back to goodwood, his mom had a doctor appointment the following week, and mikey was planning on talking to the principal of her school to see if she could take summer classes. they're doing better, we had a bit of a scare there for a while. . .[/b] the doctors still weren't entirely sure what was going on with his mom, but she was fighting for everything she could. it wasn't easy watching her go from being the woman i grew up watching deal with my father, to laying in a hospital bed.[/b] a humourless chuckle escaped him, shaking his head, he wished there was something he could do to help them. Are they going to be OK without you until the semester is over? Or will you need to leave school again?[/b][/i] he shook his head. i think mikayla can handle it for a bit, at least until i get home for summer. i'm not leaving again, if i can help it.[/b] holding her hand in his, he laughed as vera trotted over to them, mewing up at them both. vera girl, shush.[/b] his cat was so strange, she didn't seem like a cat, not at all, more like the smartest human since dumbledore. he didn't want to return to the subject from earlier, but he knew he needed to partially. i am sorry, ri, i truly am.[/b] reaching over, he brushed a strand of her hair down, he loved her hair, it was so soft. . . hesitantly, he looked at her, he loved her so much, much more than he'd anticipated doing when he'd first met her all those years ago. leaning forward, he kissed her, nothing but a soft, loving kiss. i love you, and i shouldn't have doubted you.[/b] [/blockquote][/blockquote][/size]
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Post by rigel andromeda serpens on Mar 29, 2010 1:27:50 GMT -5
Jace was going under a lot of stress and that was something Rigel could understand. Whatever he believed he saw at the victory party was due to sleep deprivation and lack of concentration; which led to lack of common sense. Rigel was just glad Jace was able to apologize and move on the way she wanted to. After he kissed her, Rigel smiled softly. She loved the way he smelled and the way he tasted. His lips were so soft and she felt the spark within her heart and stomach as she always did when he touched her. She loved him so much and only hoped that their argument would never happen again. "I love you too," she replied and placed her forehead against his. "And it's alright. Just please... don't hurt me... you promised."
A flashback, five months prior, when after weeks of annoying struggles, Jace and Rigel finally admitted to loving each other. She asked him to promise that he would never hurt her; that he would show her why love was the most precious feeling anyone could ever feel. He promised her he would make her happy and to not have her regret her decision. Now, Rigel's heart was nearly broken, however saved due to Jace's ability to explain everything. Rigel was glad it was just a bump in the road and not some demented black hole that just kept going.
Placing her had on Jace's cheek, Rigel lifted her head up and sighed softly. "Your mother is a strong woman. And she will get better. For you and Mikayla, she will let herself get better." She looked deep into Jace's eyes, hoping he would feel better about everything. He was so tired and Rigel wanted him to have a few decent hours of sleep. When Reid died, neither of them had good sleep. Jace had the worst patterns to the point that he went days without rest and eventually needed a potion from the hospital wing. Rigel on the other hand wasn't able to sleep either, but sometimes got in and hour or two before the nightmares started. Once she admitted her feelings for Jace, the nightmares stopped and she was able to sleep again. She was able to talk about Reid without getting too upset.
After pressing her lips against his again, Rigel closed her eyes and kissed his hand. "C'mon," she said while getting up from the bench. She still held his hand, pulling on him to get up. "You need to get some rest. You look like shite." Her infamous smirk appeared across her face before leaning down and giving him a playful peck kiss on the cheek and lips. "C'mon you need to sleep. Otherwise Vera will scratch your boots up again."
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Post by jace greyson. on Mar 29, 2010 2:04:06 GMT -5
[blokquote] I love you too, and it's alright. Just please... don't hurt me... you promised. [/i][/color] nodding, he smiled at her gently. she made him happy, happier than he'd been in a long while. and she didn't even have to do anything, she just had to be near him. wasn't that how love worked? it was effortless? maybe they'd reach that point soon. the effortless part. i intend to keep that promise.[/b] he murmured, giving her a very tired smile, now the full extent of his exhaustion was hitting him, his blue eyes not quite as bright, but he still felt the urge to just stay up here with her. Your mother is a strong woman. And she will get better. For you and Mikayla, she will let herself get better.[/b][/i] nodding, he touched her hand on his face and held it there. i think you'd like her, she's. . . indescribable. she's one of the strongest women i know.[/b] he didn't say that rigel herself was one of the others on that list. C'mon, you need to get some rest. You look like shite.[/b] chuckling, he smiled, the feeling of her lips still on his, shaking his head he looked over at her. you don't look half bad yourself.[/b] he said with a dry sarcasm. kissing him again, he watched her stand up, letting her pull him to his feet. he wavered for a moment but regained his balance almost immediately. C'mon you need to sleep. Otherwise Vera will scratch your boots up again.[/b][/i] looking down at the cat, he had no doubt that she would. i just got them repaired after her last little tantrum. . . you would have laughed so hard, i told her that she couldn't come to the hospital, and she puts a hole clear through the entire toe of my boot. i about lost a toenail.[/b] yup, it was bed time for sure. holding her hand in his, he glanced towards the door to the tower, dreading the stairs that would lead all the way to the opposite end of the castle. lead the way, your highness.[/b][/blockquote][/blockquote][/size]
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